Last week, I had a moment where I thought I seriously was on the verge of insanity. I almost ran out of my house screaming. I felt as though I could not take another second of the chaos. Maia was sick and clingy which means I carried her around 24 hours a day for about 5 days straight. I had not been getting good sleep because she was up most of the night. And, Noah had chosen those days to pick up his incessant whining habits again. On day 6, I was supposed to go to work, but I could not get a babysitter. The insanity was creeping in. I needed a break, badly. But, no break was to be found. So, I spent the day in chaos mode. I could not seem to get control of any situation, and I found myself counting down the minutes to nap time. The day was a whirl wind of loud tantrums and crying with a steady background of whining. It was enough to make even the coolest, calmest, most collected person crazy. I thought for sure, Ricky would come home to a wife with a twitch, rocking in the corner, and talking to herself.
However, by God's grace, I maintained my sanity and bolted out the door for some "alone time" as soon as Ricky walked through the door!
My conclusion to the situation is one that I am sure many people will have strong opinions about. But, I am going to say it anyways: Some people were just not cut out to be stay-at-home moms. I am one of those people. I am so thankful for the way God has blessed me to be able to be home with my kids 3 1/2 days a week and at work the other half of the week. It is a perfect balance for my sanity and I love it! There, I said it.